It feels like I start a new life over every few months. I can only assume that I am charging ever faster forward in my evolution because I have places to go, people to see, music to make and loving to lavish.
In September I finally found my path to producing music. I thought I was going into a music program, but realized that the Shoreline program was too outside the scope of what I want to learn. I decided to teach myself through my own curriculum. All I needed to do was find myself some time. So I dove back into working in I.T., but this time I figured out I can do contract work. A few months on, a few months off. Time to travel, to write, to sculpt music. I'm on my second contract. Funny thing, I'm currently contracting at the same company that Dave Pezzner of Jacob London just 'retired' from. He left to do music full time. Coincidence? Never.
I also started two monthlies. One is at SeeSound Lounge the first Wednesday of every month. Through the hard work and persistence of DJ Messiah, our weekly happy hour has officially been picked up as Qoöl Seattle. 'Qoöl is the original clubbing happy hour in SF, if not the world. Every Wednesday evening, starting at 5pm, Jondi & Spesh host a five hour club night at 111 Minna in San Francisco.' Qoöl has now been expanded to a special happy hour Wednesday in LA, Portland and, now, Seattle. Adlib and I are the official residents of the first Wednesdays of every month. I feel very honored to be part of this amazing West-coast team. The second monthly is at another space with new beginnings called the Sole Repair Shop. Its a beautiful loft in the heart of Capital Hill. This night, on the second Saturday of every month, hosts a power team of DJs including JOY, Venus and Amateur Youth plus many special guests. And I'm hard at work at getting live performances into the mix, as you know I love to do! We call it Evolve. Fitting.
But the third new beginning is not so pleasant. After nearly 4 years, Be and I have decided to part romantic ways. I'm heartbroken, devastated, angry, serene, relieved, hopeful, freed, forgiving, forgotten, complete. I am truth. I'm seeing past mistakes and stopping them at the gate. I'm loving, learning, listening, closed, shut down, selective. I'm searching for myself inside a vest of littered leaves. I'm alone, empty, abrupt, enraged, relinquished. I am all those things in any given moment. And I have only just begun my revolution in Self. Release.
I saw a sign in a window today, neon red. Its a message for me, a way to be. I took a photo and placed it on the wallpaper of my phone, so I will remember during these times of tribulation.
Now Open.
